What I am??

What I am??
Okay what's about you?
No no ...I dont expect this way .." Well, I am John.. I am blah blah.."

Something beyound where no one feels easy to describe.
for example: What's about you after this earth is no more.. before the earth...
well read: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Timeline_of_evolution

One of my colleage gave me some movies yesterday.as usual I can't sleep easily in nights.
I sleep either if i am very tired or if i am very very tired ;)
and I was not able to work either.
so i decided to watch a movie.
and I like to watch flop movies ..it's again an extreme craze..
well, Dashavtar is a drama movie starting from an event of 12th century.
My evergreen question on the existence and form of God tossed again in my mind.

If you go to temple, what you get? A pseudo assurance that someone hears for your problems or someone in yourself is connected to you at the place.later is better if there is any possibility to awake God.

Ok what's about you??
Once again in the same movie.. after the tsunami is over, the girl says, "Govinda (God) saved us". But the hero says, "Govinda killed so many people" Who did that. I think both were wrong. again what's about you?

We are so orthrodox on traditions/religions and shedding blood for ugly causes. we are usually impressed by others.

but if our inner system is strong enough to answer:

what I am ??

haphazard..yeah

I was, I guess, 3 years old... I was sick. my legs were paralysed (Initial level).... Lying on bed....

.. i was having fever..i saw micro shaped bubbles floating in the air.

I was murmuring to myself..... i was just staring at them.... i was talking to myself..i thought i got something really close to eternity or great truth... those bubbles were all around.... and there was a sequence of questions and answers.

and ...yes... I ever delighted to research more regarding the same.... to feel the photons from my eyes... to seek behind the scenes of secrets......

i read less..just feel more.... so sometime people find my thoughts either outdated or uncatchable... but since they are absolutely generic ... there are true.

I wish I could learn to refine them and communicate to people.